Rebuilt Wings…

Pain, it’s a part of being human.  It’s like a stab wound.

It’s so painful that you can almost feel your heart dripping blood. You wish you could do without it, but you can’t escape. How can someone just by living damage another person beyond repair, cannot be comprehended.

We don’t know why we stand, why we stay longer, why we just keep staring, hoping for time to just stop and move back a few hours or maybe months.

Deep inside, no matter how much you try to hate that one person, you can’t, you just can’t. It makes you love them more and it hurts even more.

As I sit in my corner and think about all those lies,

I have nothing else to do but break down and cry.

You knew it would end, you knew it would die.

You knew one day we’d have to say goodbye.

You told me you loved me, you told me you cared,

The moments we shared, replay in my head.

You thought it was a game, you thought you’d win,

But in the end, you felt nothing within.

Deep down inside, there was a hollow space,

Something my love could never replace.

Reaping the dividends of blind belief is the toughest ordeal. I’ve learnt through my experiences that one should always have “the desire”, but don’t let that desire become an obsession. Don’t let it possess you so much that later it just leaves you feeling incapacitated.

Fate’s a funny thing. Something that was once so infinitely divine loses it’s charm in the blink of an eye. You just keep on holding to nothing so tight, looking for reasons to not let go.

There are uncountable moments that you want to shelter till everlastingness, hold them close, embrace them but you know it’ll do you no good, someday you’ll have to let go, set yourself free, breathe the fresh air, bend your beliefs, redefine promises, grow new vices.

Thank yourself, if you couldn’t be repaired, you at least survived it.

You see yourself fribbling with emotions, feeling the vacuum within,

Trying to palpate your heart where it once played a rhythm divine.

Multiple emotions pulsating through your body, pain leaving your body.

You have cold feet, so cold, you can barely move,

Your mouth feels like paper, parched, words just an echo in some distant corner of your mind,

Unable to come out, but,

Sometimes you have to run away to find yourself.

Sometimes you find yourself where you aren’t looking.

Sometimes you find yourself only after you lose yourself.

The affliction, the grief, the storm inside. Let it drive you; let it be your strength. Don’t cling on to it; learn to set it free…

What you desire for, sometimes comes like a dream and leaves like a nightmare.

It’s so hard to wait around for something that you know might not happen, but it’s even harder to give up when you know it’s everything you ever wanted.

But that’s the rule of life, you need to fight with the demons inside every day, keep going, and move on.

It’s hard, grueling, painful, but it makes us stronger, wiser and better.

The hardest thing about realizing that what you so desperately longed for will never happen is that you spent so much time pretending that it would.

The hurt you’ve been caused makes you flinch. It’s undeniable. But you need to stop running from somewhere, from someone. There’s got to be a time, a place where’ll you’ll finally stop. You can’t escape forever, you have to face the reality, accept it, make it a part of you, let it grow inside till it invades your fogged up mind and makes you stronger.

Those who don’t know the value of loyalty can never appreciate the cost of betrayal.

In life, we realize there’s a role for everyone we meet. Some test us, some love us, some teach us, and some use us. But the ones who are truly important bring out the best in us. They are the rare and amazing people who remind us why it’s worth it.

We have to learn not to be naïve to darkness; nothing comes without a dark shadow. You need to be able to see through it. Life comes in all shades of gray. It’s on you to decide which one is yours.

Sometimes the strongest people are the ones who smile through silent pain, cry behind closed doors and fight battles nobody knows about.

One day, you’ll meet someone and he’s ultimately going to find out.

How you chew, how you sip.

How you love chocolate and all the glitter.

How you can’t stop fighting with him and then make it up to him.

How you look underneath all the makeup, how you love going for a walk with him.

How you get cranky at times and pick up fights for the most unsettling reasons.

How you can be nasty and jealous yet love him with all his setbacks.

How you can get hyper at times, what turns you on.

He’s going to know every little thing that makes you happy.

He’ll know all your faults and guess what,

He’ll still love you!

If you love life, don't waste time, for time is what life is made up of

                              - Bruce Lee

“Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift of God, which is why we call it the present.”                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               -                                      - Bil Keane

Oblivious to defeat, humble to beauty, athirst to beginnings. Emboss them within and rebuild your broken wings, then see how life works in mysterious ways.

                       -Akankshaa Diksha Sharma